Tuesday, August 13, 2013


Time flys.

Time has flown somewhere wonderful for Kenny. Her name is Aqua. We all know that Aqua means water and that water is vital for all forms of life.

Aqua is vital for Kenny.

Aqua has made Kenny better, healthier, happier.

 Aqua Audrina

 She is his purpose in life

She has given me my son back

She is heaven sent

 She is amazing and will do whatever she wants... maybe she will sing

She does have a little of her daddy's stubbornness 

 She brought his smile back

 She is vital to our lives 

Monday, February 25, 2013


Kenny has gone to work full time, yeah! He is doing well with it but spends a lot of his time off sleeping.
He and his girlfriend got two dogs from the shelter. They are being responsible with them, keeping them fed and safe. They could use the money they are spending on the dogs on other things, like the arrival of their baby.
Yes, you read right. I am going to be a grandma. We have not been officially told yet, but she is showing so it is hard not to know.
I told my SIL that I wanted grandkids (she has 15!) and at this point I would take them even if my sons weren't married. Be careful what you wish for.
I am extremely worried. What is my responsibility in this? I did all I could for my children to grow up into responsible adults. Did I teach them enough to be responsible parents, especially Kenny?
I am excited and happy.
I look forward to this baby in our life.
I would really like to be told.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Am I Judging Fairly?

Kenny tells me he is happy. Myself, along with several family members, question that.

But, who am I to judge or question him?

I have had to rethink my position. If he is happy with this girl in his life why can't I be happy for him?

I am trying. I am getting better at accepting. Although it is very hard to be put at the back of the line. It hurt Christmas morning when everyone in the family adjusted their plans so they could be at our house. It was more for Lily, Kenny's sister with Down syndrome, that everyone made our house the priority on Christmas morning. I know when my other kids start having children of their own they will make their house the priority that special day but for now they choose to be with Lily enjoying her happiness.
Kenny was at the girlfriend's house. There were no children there. Not even a bunch of presents to open. They chose that over us and it did hurt.

But, they did come over. They came over in the afternoon for about 20 minutes. They left because there was no else around. They had all gone off to other places. See I am still negative. It was good to see them and have them come over...period.

I want to get rid of the negative feelings. I am trying. I will try harder. If my son tells me he is happy I am going to try to believe and accept that.

Here's to a more accepting 2013!

Kenny holding a hand painted journal that his brother gave him.