The honesty of this piece is what struck everyone who read it. The length and the softly lilting rhymes lead from peak to valley often throughout the piece and the phases theme comes across strongly.
Can I tell you some secrets About true parts of my life The phases I go through Being happy Being blue Knowing everything too And not having a clue where I’ve been It all started when I was 17 I was clean Not mean And wanted a queen I needed someone to lean on A reason to stay alive I found drugs High five Suddenly people appeared The pot cleared my mind I feared nothing while I was drinking And it stopped my thinking That’s when my ship started sinking I went to the doctors one day He had me take a survey With a display of situations Do you obey Do you betray How do you play Does this take your smile away There was absolutely no moray that day It was all grey Not okay And it caused dismay There was in no way Any allay in what he told me I’m sorry to say But I see an absentee key chemical in your brain It’s why you’ve been acting insane It’s the main cause of your pain Why you can’t maintain a job You try to obtain to refrain from complaining But can’t Lot of people will remain inhumane to your condition In addition Your ambition will be in submission An apparition if you will That’s when my hope started to unfill Times started getting hard So I decided to try to kill myself The carbon monoxide started to fill my lungs I laid still for hours Then I got a shrill and chill through my body It was God’s will Keeping me alive God arrived and revived me I survived I derived and contrived a new plan To become a happy man Stronger than ever Achieve anything So I began partying more For a year or more I would pour out the shots Score with women And started to adore and explore drugs galore Before I knew it I didn’t know what I was doing anymore And fell into addictions trap door There was infliction of friction in my life My problems were nonfiction Affliction on my family I didn’t know what to do So I had my dad give me a benediction It was good Not bad I was glad and not sad I ended up going into a sober program I started growing and showing improvements Being sober started slowing my mind My eyes started glowing I began knowing myself Life was flowing great At the rate I was at I didn’t hate myself Could walk straight Take girls on a date Didn’t underrate myself Then A change of state I met Lady Lucifera I was yet to know She’d be a threat to my life Brunette With a fiancee We abet to beget In other words We fucked We had or duet But I’ll never forget the day She treated me a certain way It upset me to the point I tried suicide again I cried Should have died I’d cut my wrists Supplied my body with over 200 pills Sat in a flood tide shower For over an hour The devil was beside and inside me I was acting like Jekyll and Hyde Upside down Inside out About dead Then saved by a devout friend I thought it was my end Luckily I didn’t ascend to the heavens Or descend to hell Doctors did mend my cuts Forever, I commend my friend I can’t comprehend why I didn’t die So I started to try to get high again Fly in the sky Put fry in my eye Thought drugs were my ally Would rely on them I’d lie, cheat and steal Drugs made me not feel I started to deal Concealed them in an ideal gym bag It was a big ordeal I thought I was the shit Surreal Unreal Pulled over in my automobile The cops did unseal the gym bag Revealed the mushrooms and pot A knot in my stomach I got caught Not in a great spot Brought to jail Sat in a cell It was hell I got out And I’ll tell you All started to go well I’d undergo a sober life once more Being sober was a bestow I’d grow, know and glow Although She walked in Thin Soft skin Breath taking grin Our love did begin Fast pace It was a blast Our love didn’t outlast a month The last thing she did Was brake up with me over facebook What a rook, right I wasn’t alright I lost my might And used the knife that night What a new delight Helped me when I was uptight Took away my spite Made me feel alright The despite of others Would make me contrite my soul But I stayed sober a whole 7 months A goal was to stop cutting But I didn’t drop the knife for over a year My dear body has over 70 scars now How I couldn’t handle life I wouldn’t be happy for months Why I did it again I don’t know I was so lonely and low The only solution was suicide My body got a distribution of 150 pills Pollution to my person The resolution was an institution No restitution to my mind I got out once more to find drugs Ended up behind bars again Before I went in I drove my car 75 mph into a cement barrier Suicide once more I wanted to be far from this life Only a few cuts is all After that My view changed I grew Broke through the other side Today I construe God’s plan Thank you for reading This has a lot of meaning See Today I’m sober Happy Free And don’t want to be anyone but ME!
Ryker is Kenny's dog. He is a good dog, although a little naughty. He is big enough to get up to the countertop and eat anything that has been left out. Need I say more.
The other day Lily had come home not feeling well. We were sitting watching t.v. when I noticed Ryker was having a full blown seizure. His whole body was in convulsions. He couldn't bark or even whimper. He couldn't walk or stand. He had a blank stare. I felt so bad for him.
I loaded Ryker and Lily in the car and headed to the vet. He was fine by the time we got there. The doctor thinks it might be the onset of Epilepsy. They aren't too concerned we just need to watch and record for more seizures. If they get worse we will put him on medicine. We have not seen any more since then.
He has a band-aid on after getting his blood drawn.
Some fun news. Kenny took 5th place in a Tumblr poetry contest. I will hopefully post it tomorrow.