Christmas went well! His job is going well! Over 60 days clean and sober! I'm thinking all is merry and bright.
Then today punched me in the gut and I was right back to reality. It wasn't something he did though, which is always nice.
He has random court ordered drug testing days. He has to call a number every day and if it says get drug tested then he had darn well better get drug tested. Today he had to get tested. I told him I would take him since there is still a problem with the payment process and the whole insurance mess. I wanted to ask certain questions that I knew Kenny would never get all the answers to. He wouldn't remember the answers anyway.
So we (Kenny, myself, and Lily) walk into the office. Kenny says he's there for a drug test, signs a paper and walks away. He didn't ask one question about payment, not one.
So I step up to the window. I start rambling off a bunch of questions and the guy looks right at me and says "kids can't be in here" I look at Lily who is right beside me. "we have registered sex offenders in here"
What was I thinking! I wasn't! It never once dawned on me! I then scanned the room to see who was looking at my daughter. What were they thinking!?!
I felt sick. I just wanted her out of there. I dont' want to have to do this. I don't want this kind of atmosphere to be our reality.